
It’s rare for me to compose a #dblog that is not all “chirpy chirpy” … I think the last time I did one that was kind of down was at Diabetes1.org and sleep apnea testing. Sleep really is vital to everyone, diabetic or not … without a good sleep … well … we become exhausted, depressed, need I say more?
So, here’s the jist.
- Been in our new home now for close to a month. Yippee!!! Searching for new team of doctors is a job in itself.
- Trying to figure out where to shop that isn’t all “meat and potatoes” food (the grocery stores I’m used to that are more Middle Eastern are so far not to be found here) … yippee … sigh.
- Realising the street you moved on is a major artery when you were told otherwise by real estate agent who sold you the property … sigh (so far my explorer cat has survived not getting hit … very scary).
- Trying to motivate your DH to unpack with the limited time they have at home due to their work schedule … having lived with limited things since putting our previous house on the market back in March … it’s getting old.
- This promise of a new beginning, yadda, yadda, yadda, in the land of insulin pumping program (ADP) … isn’t all it’s built up to be.
Basically, I miss Montreal … my home for the past 26 years (that the new owners just LOVE …. Urrhhh …. why did we make our house so cute).
The biggest thing that is hitting me for the past few months though is that finally I can admit that diabetes is bringing me down. I rarely will admit that, and am all smiles (damn they create wrinkles around the eyes … and I’m already feeling like I’ve aged 20 years in the past few months with stress).
My basal rate is almost down to ½ of what it used to be … and still needing to be tweaked. Why I’m become even more insulin sensitive is making no sense at all with the extra hormonal issues I’ve been experiencing that were making life the opposite. Has my body gotten used to them?
With the use of the Dexcom CGMS … I am now at least getting a better vision of where to tweak things … but what has finally dawned on me lately is … is with my basal portion of my insulin coverage pretty well covered (I mean … .450 / hr seems to be my average hourly rate) it maybe lowered if I continue in this hypo fairy land I seem to exist day in day out.

As we all know, hypos are exhausting, they leave you like a limp noodle, and the things you have set out to do that most people take for granted … get in car, drive to store, do your shopping … get on bicycle, go for a cycle, get active … go for walk … yadda, yadda, yadda. I think you get the drift. To do these simple tasks lately, I’m not able to do them. It’s bringing me down to the point where I had a friend force me OUT OF MY HOUSE, to go out for a trip with her (searching for green bacon along HWY 2 of eastern Ontario). That did help, but sadly, getting behind the wheel, even with my Dexcom alarm set at 4 (72) … is not much help. I am crashing in the blood sugar area … and luckily it’s not behind the wheel.
So, what dawned on me lately is that my other ratios I have been using are wrong for insulin coverage. I’ve upped my I:C (insulin to carb) ratio … and giving it a test … I see a few times where it will have to be upped more. Just like our basal rates are different from hour to hour on a pump … and this is where a pump is VERY handy. You’re sort of stuck with MDI (Multiple Dose Injections) … once injected … you are the insulin slave.

My other fear? Tomorrow, I am going to visit my family that I haven’t seen since last year. I’m driving alone which I never used to feel. It’s not far, but it’s that background fear of going low. So my CGMS alarm for going low is set abit higher for that drive (I usually have it at 4/72 … for driving I put it to 5/90 … to allow for any variance in the blood meter verification test). I did this last week when driving back to Quebec to have the Ontario MOT form filled out by my endo to certify me that I’m insane … JOKING … that I can drive a vehicle in Ontario safely. The form from Ontario really goes into hypo unawareness unlike the form my endo filled out for the province of Quebec last year for me. This all stems from Allan Makii, a T1D who caused a TRIPLE fatal crash while driving with a low blood sugar back in 2009.

So, as I post this blog, and I’ve missed posting them lately, but life has been whacky as you’ve seen … wish me luck … on sorting out my insulin requirements … getting my new home organised with help from my DH when he’s home … and trying to get out of what I think is one of the worst depression bouts I’ve ever had.