Last night we got together with friends that we don't see too often. We were celebrating a few birthdays, so I being the dessert maker, made up a nice treat. Only one person in the group is a diabetic (D) like myself, and I saw their eyes bulge out when they saw what I had made, and I could see their nonD wife giving me the evil eye, as if I was going to kill her hubby due to sugar overdose! He's on insulin by the way, so he can "cheat" from time to time like I/we D's do from time to time.
As I was sitting around the table sharing appetizers and chatting up with the guys on all the latest news. I started to realise that I was wishing I was sitting with all my D friends that I've made contact with over the past year. I only started to socialise in D forums recently, and have found them to be a God send for when I'm feeling down or see someone asking for help. I was having an inner struggle inside of myself with feeling the way I was last night. The one thing I realised, everything with that evening was revolving around all the good food that we were eating. Not that this hasn't happened before, I mean food is part of the "social" thing. We had awesome brushetta, orange slices made up with sugar, olive oil and whole black peppers (really GOOD - here's a low sugar version I found) to share and the main course was pasta sauce and meatballs with penne - eccellente!
The only little glitch, I was having to calculate how many carbs in the back of my mind for all the foods/drinks I was cramming into my body and how long to bolus my insulin so my blood sugars wouldn't spike like crazy. I felt sort of a bit strange, telling some of my friends about the carb count in pasta, and my other Dfriend giving me that evil eye of "why are you telling them this?". I guess I just can't shut up about diabetes sometimes - is that bad?
I was wishing at that pointin time that I was surrounded by my diabetic friends that would "get me" (can you hear me Danny?). The ones that know what to do with carb/insulin ratio (my Dfriend doesn't really care - despite my giving him a few books). I was having little thoughts in my head, still listening into my friends of course, but thinking that if we were all diabetic, we'd be sharing some of our stories about diabetes. I've never felt this way before at a get together with nondiabetic friends, and as you can see, it's sort of shocked me to be thinking this way.
So, my question to you, have you ever experienced this feeling before? I'm thinking because I'm more in tune with my diabetes now then I ever was, that this was the reason for why I felt this way.